The more I think about our relationship the more I realise that you didn’t appreciate me. I was slowly killing myself trying to take care of you and doing things that would make you happy,
and you never noticed
“I bear this weight on my shoulders I want you to know — I am hurt. You’re not to blame for it all, too much pain this love exert. I’ll never feel this intensity Nor toxicity in love again. I refuse to let you destroy me. It’s where we’re going, not where we’ve been. The best closure, I think, must be silence. I cannot be lured back in. I will cry to my counselor and wish upon stars but I can’t let your touch brush my skin.”— Setting myself free // Grazia Curcuru
After you left I had to relearn how to be alone
I had to learn how to fall asleep
Without the sound of your voice and the touch of a familiar hand
I had to learn to cook for myself and that it’s okay to eat even if you’re alone
I had to learn how to be by myself because I was never alone when I had you
I miss you
I’m determined to heal
For your sake
And for my own
These wounds will no longer control me.
And now I must try again.
No matter how many times
I have fallen—
I have felt emptiness.
I must fill the void again.
They say, otherwise. // ma.c.a
This is how you get over them. You sit with the feeling. You learn it. You write about it and talk and grieve and be gentle with yourself. Gradually, it begins to shift and change shape. Other matters of importance arise. Other things become exciting. You find new loves. You love them differently. You love yourself differently too. Your old love becomes a soft fact or a body memory. Maybe the love leaves, maybe it doesn’t, but it changes. It will not always feel this way.
Yrsa Daley-Ward
I feel too small for the world tonight,
But that’s okay.
Sometimes i like the thought of travelling the earth unnoticed.
“If you’ve been brutally broken but still have the courage to be gentle, then you’re a badass with the heart of an angel.”— Keanu Reeves (via thoughtkick)